I brought my baby home on Thursday and while BF...

I brought my baby home on Thursday and while BF was sore (not a correct latch), it was do-able and she was feeding. By last night though, I knew something was wrong and called my midwife because I had concerns after finding red stuff in my baby's nappy. At the hospital I was told I may be in for cluster feeding to get my supply up. It wasn't cluster feeding. I was starving her and I didn't know it. The red stuff turned out to be urate and occurs when a baby is dehydrated. I got assistance with latching and it was all good. Or so I thought. But over night, there was no improvement and it seemed I was feeding for a solid three hours because baby would cry every time I tried to put her to bed after a feed. She'd wake up and start rooting for something to suck on and she would be gnawing her hands. So, anyway, today after a very fitful night, I rang the midwife and said I thought I needed to get a pump and try expressing and then feeding by bottle. She wasn't feeding properly (kinda sleepy on the breast) and I thought I had milk. My Mum was on the way out the door to get the pump and some formula, in case I couldn't express. The midwife rang back and told me Mum could get a pump from the hospital, which she did. I've now used the pump twice and I'm just about dry. I have virtually no milk and have given baby two 25 ml bottles of formula. She now gets drowsy and goes to sleep properly. I'm still trying to express and will do so every few hours in the hope I can get milk, but I'll be honest when I say I'm not optimistic. I don't know if it's cause I had a rough birth and lost a lot of strength or because I couldn't identify a problem as it was mistaken for cluster feeding. It sucks having baby blues when you're also stressing that you're starving your baby, but hopefully I'll start to get some sleep too soon and that may help the emotions. I am grateful that she's eating at all and it's not something worse. I never thought seeing a really pooey nappy could be such a relief. She still hasn't really peed, but hopefully soon. I'm sure she's making up for lost fluids. I'm sure I'm not the only one that has had problems. Thanks for letting me grizzle.